The poor have tiny psychological wallets. God wants to give them more, but theis psychology can't handle the blessing.hha. So here it is.
Today, my mom gave me my allowance for the entire week. YES!.hha. ahm. But because it was "too much" for me, I felt very uncomfortable.hha. but it's true. in other words the money didn't fit in my psychological wallet. the money didn't match my perceived identitiy.
This was the very first thing i did in school. I sat with these raw feelings for a while, and identified them as fear and guilt. Second, With a stern of a girls voice, i "heard" these loud thoughts within..
" You should be ashamed of youself. you should be the one doing the first move! your the boy! are you brave enough to do that!"
" You should be ashamed of youself. your s WEAK!"
" You should be ashamed of youself. you are now losing hope!don't give up!"
They are powerful emotions and I need to face them. So, starting tomorrow, a change of routine will be followed.:))
Or if i failed they would be like a ticking time bombs, ready to explode at a later time, DESTROYING whatever gorgeous things that i have attained.
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